I take long walks with my confusion. And some scraps of my troubled mind sometimes end up here...
Just ask I have little book full of me, if you like, I might share more of them with you.
Simply, I am a person who tries to live every moment of his life, I want to travel to every corner of the world, try every kind of food, read all the books at the bookstores, watch every movie and listen to every kind of music.
Enjoy Your Stay Here! :)
Now most of us do our best to not to think about death but there’s always part of our minds that knows this can’t go on forever, part of us always knows they were just a doctor’s visit away or a phone call away from being starkly reminded with the fact of our own mortality or of those closest to us.
Now I’m sure many of you have experienced this in some form. You must know how uncanny it is to suddenly
be thrown out of the normal course of your life and just be given the full time job of not dying or caring for someone who is but the one thing people tend to realize at moments like this is that they wasted a lot of time when life was normal, and it’s not just what they, it’s not just what they did with their time, it’s not just that they spent too much time working or compulsively checking email, it’s that they cared about the wrong things they regret what they cared about , their attention was bound up in petty concerns year after year when life was normal
And this is a paradox of course because we all know this is coming…
I mean, don’t you know this is coming? Don’t you know there’s going to come a day when you’ll be sick or someone close to you will die?
And you’ll look back at the kinds of things that captured your attention
And you’ll think, “What the hell am I doing with my life?”
You know this, and yet if you’re like most people, you’ll spend most of your time in life tacitly presuming you’ll live forever
it’s like watching a bad movie for the fourth time or bickering with your spouse I mean this, these things only makes sense in light of eternity there better be a heaven if we’re gonna waste our time like that.
There are ways to really live in the present moment.
what’s the alternative? It is always now
However much you feel you may need to plan for the future to anticipate it, to mitigate the risks, the reality of your life is now
This may sound trite but it’s the truth. It’s not quite true as a matter of physics, in fact there is no now that encompasses the entire universe you can’t talk about an event being simultaneously
Occurring here and one at the same moment occurring in Andromeda
the truth is, now is not even well-defined as a matter of neurology because we know that inputs to the brain come at different moments and that consciousness is built upon layers of inputs whose timing to have to be different are conscious awareness of the present moment is
in some relevant sense already a memory but as a matter of conscious experience the reality of your life is always now and I think this is a liberating truth about the nature of the human mind in fact I think there’s probably nothing more important to understand about your mind than that if you want to be happy the past is a memory it’s a thought
Arising in the present the future is merely anticipated, it is another thought arising now what we truly have is this moment. and we spend most of our lives forgetting this truth repudiating it, fleeing it, overlooking it, and the horror is that we succeed we we’ve managed to never really connect with the present moment and find fulfillment there because we are continually hoping to become happy in the future
And the future never arrives even when we think we’re in the present moment. we’re in very subtle ways, always looking over its shoulder anticipating what’s coming next we’re always solving a problem
it’s possible to simply drop your problem if only for a moment and enjoy whatever is true of your life in the present.
This is not a matter of new information or more information,
It requires a change in attitude and your state of mind
It requires a change in the attentiveness you pay to your experience in the present moment.
Take a look around, everything is backwards. Everything is upside-down!
People see the right wrong and the wrong right. People forgot their values. We’re in these days where being kind and friendly is lame and stupid. Talking about feelings and thoughts is being “dramatic”. We’re in a world where appearance is your only identification. Personality is not an issue any more. Sarcasm and hatred is what we do best. Everyone and everything lost its value. Some people will try to ruin your confidence and make you feel worthless. Some friends will leave you because they think you’re not good enough for them. Ignore them! You’re not an angel, that’s a fact. But if you know you’ve got good in you, then don’t lose that just to blend in with this rotten society.
Some people will hate you for very pathetic, contradicting reasons, some will hate you for no reasons at all. And they will show it. Don’t try to impress them, and don’t try to make them like you, they’ll only hate you more. Don’t stop being yourself. Greet them when they pass by even if they don’t answer. Smile at them when they eye contact you even if they roll their eyes and walk away. This isn’t being weak, it’s being strong enough to not hold a grudge and have inner peace, and that takes a lot.
"A man of words and not of deeds"
A man of words and not of deeds
Is like a garden full of weeds,
And when the weeds begin to grow
It’s like a garden full of snow,
And when the snow begins to fall
It’s like a bird upon the wall,
And when the bird away does fly
It’s like a eagle in the sky,
And when the sky begins to roar
It’s like a lion at the door,
And when your door begins to crack
It’s like a stick across your back,
And when your back begins to smart
It’s like a penknife in your heart,
And when your heart begins to bleed
You’re dead, and dead, and dead… indeed.
I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life.
I’ve learned that making a ‘living’ is not the same thing as making a life.
I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.
I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one.
I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much you care, some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
I’ve learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.
I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.
& sometimes the people you expect to help you get back up when you’re down will be the ones who will let you down
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I’ve learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.
I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I’ve learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I’ve learned that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
اللي بيقرا السطور دي وهو في حالة أنا معرفهاش صراحة
لكن أعرف إنه بيعاني من مشاكل كتير وبقاله كتير مش مبسوط
وزهق من فكرة إنه مش مبسوط
وشايف إن من حقّه شوية انبساط
لكن مشاكله كتير فعلاً ووارد ميكونش حد حاسس بيه
ومعندوش أزمة كبيرة مع ده لإنه حاسس إن الكل (أو المعظم) مش مبسوط
المشاكل كتير أوي عنده
أنا تقريباً نفس النظام برضة
ومش من النوع اللي لمّا تيجي تحكي له هيقولّك : “معلش” و “أمّال أنا أعمل إيه”
لا أنا بعرف اسمع كويس أو بتجنّب السمع من الأساس لو الكلام لا هيريحك ولا هيساعدك و ها يكئبني و خلاص
بس الفكرة .. إني قعدت قعده صلح مع نفسي كده و اتفقنا علي حجات فرقت معايا شوية
قلت لنفسي أكتبهالك يمكن تفرق معاك … يمكن
إيه رأيك لو فكرت كدة إنك تخلص من المشاكل الشخصيه اللي انت سببتها لنفسك بنفسك الأول؟
يوم ما هتعرف تشوف فيه مشاكل شخصيتك قبل ما تشغل نفسك بمشاكل و شخصيات الناس اللى غيرك اعرف انك نضجت وانك ايتديت تتصالح مع نفسك
واعتبر نفسك نضجت فعلا لما تعرف قيمة الحاجة اللى ف ايدك و هي لسه ف ايدك مش بعد ما تضيع منك…
و بلاش تقعد تفكر كتير فى تفاصيل كل حاجه لحد ما بتخلق لنفسك مشاكل جوه دماغك مش موجودة أصلاً. افصل و صفي دماغك كل شويه كده لأن كتر التفكير في المشاكل بيعمل مشاكل في التفكير
و اعرف ان مفيش أي حاجة تستاهل انك تزعل عليها اساساً…و ان اكبر مشاكلك دي دلوقتي هتتحول لذكريات كمان كام سنة و هتقعد تضحك عليها لما تفتكرها…. فمتعيشش نفسك موقف ممكن متستحملوش
مش يبقى أريّح كتير؟